A Soul Restored

Dead. Black. Harmful. Guilty. 

These are not words that described a mere principle within me; they described me. Though life coursed through my veins, I was spiritually dead, and death was to be the only wage I would merit—not simply physical death, but eternal death. Flesh was the only word that could describe me. As in death, my spiritual eyes were closed and lifeless; I allowed no light to enter because I loved the darkness. Blackness permeated everything I was. Though my physical eyes could see, in rebellion, they would not look upon light and life. Though I boasted of virtue, all my actions were done in darkness, and because of this, I was harmful. I was dangerous to myself and those around me, and none of it was accidental. In all of it, I was culpable, for I had gone astray.

Broken, Injured. Restless. Fearful. 

Of no merit of my own and entirely for His name’s sake, He called this wandering sheep and blotted out my iniquities with the blood of His sacrifice on the cross. I heard His voice. It gave me life, and light began to penetrate my soul. Though still somewhat harmful, something had changed. Something old had passed away, and all things were becoming new. Yet, in it all, I was still broken. I had injured myself and those around me, and in restlessness and fear, I began to wonder if He would fulfill all He promised.

Guided. Nourished. Protected. Loved. 

From a distance, I followed His voice, learning that He would only lead me to places that would be to my advantage. In His leading, He began to feed my wounded soul with nourishment that could not be found in any other source. In my ignorance, I would wander from time to time, but He never failed to fend off the enemies of my soul with His rod. If necessary, He would even use His staff to chasten me. When my foolish legs began to wander, He did not hesitate to wound them. Then, in my weakness, He would gather me into His arms and keep me close to protect me from myself and my enemies while I mend. In those times, I began to know Him better, and as He spoke to me using a name that was all my own, I knew I was loved.

Peace. Comfort. Fearless. Endless. 

My Shepherd’s name is Jesus, and He restores my soul. I now lay down in peace wherever He leads me, and I shall not be in want. I am comforted by His rod and staff and long to be at my Shepherd’s side. No longer do I fear evil, for He is with me. His goodness and mercy will be with me all the days of my life, and my dwelling in the house of the Lord will be endless.

“He restores my soul.”– Psalm 23:3

-D. Eaton